I wanted to be like her, actually. Once I had my feet under me. I was determined to do what she did.
[a faint smile] She pushed me towards art instead. And she was right. I could help her and talk and listen and do all those things without changing who I was to become her. I don't think I would have realized that, without her.
[she can feel that hesitation between them, and she seeks to fill it. It's one of the few times when she's not sure she can bear silence.
...That alone should have been sign enough, really. She'd had this conversation with Geordie years ago, both of them sharing everything until they had nothing left to hide, and then the silence had just been right. All the words had been said. There was nothing more to say. But here, things still feel unfinished.
Not because she wants to share, but because it feels unbalanced. Only she's still reading signs. She was here for Archie, and she'd talk for Archie and nothing less.]
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[a faint smile] She pushed me towards art instead. And she was right. I could help her and talk and listen and do all those things without changing who I was to become her. I don't think I would have realized that, without her.
[she can feel that hesitation between them, and she seeks to fill it. It's one of the few times when she's not sure she can bear silence.
...That alone should have been sign enough, really. She'd had this conversation with Geordie years ago, both of them sharing everything until they had nothing left to hide, and then the silence had just been right. All the words had been said. There was nothing more to say. But here, things still feel unfinished.
Not because she wants to share, but because it feels unbalanced. Only she's still reading signs. She was here for Archie, and she'd talk for Archie and nothing less.]